Dear Shakey’s,
The time has finally come for us to talk about something that we have been avoiding for quite a while now because I don’t think I can go on silently any longer.
Over the last few months, it has become increasingly difficult to ignore the fact that our relationship has lost its spark. It is clear to me now that I have been putting more effort into our relationship than you have and it is no longer fair to me. I have given you multiple chances to prove me wrong but each time I do, I find myself even more disappointed than the last. I don’t think I can take any more of this toxic cycle of hoping for change only to be frustrated that nothing changes. You might be thinking that little changes here and there are okay because no one will notice anyway, right? Well, I’m here to tell you that I have noticed and it is not okay.
I miss the excitement that would come with being able to hold you. I miss the love and care that was always present in every family dinner, the generosity in every birthday party, the security in every business meeting or even just the comfort during a regular night in. I miss the good old days. Back then things were simpler, you didn’t have to try so hard because nothing else compared to you. You were the star. I guess somewhere along the way, you realized that, didn’t you?
I hope that when you read this letter, you will try to understand where I am coming from. Times have changed and I think we should go our separate ways. Through the many years of our relationship, I have grown and my needs have changed. I crave for the security that comes with a crust that has no gaps or bubbles. I crave for your tomato sauce that always used to feel like a comforting warm hug. I crave for the flavour and the excitement that only your cheese could provide. Now all you can give me is a hot circle of garbage. I cannot keep running back to you for comfort because all I get is disappointment.
Having said all that, I am not going to deny the fact that you have done a lot for me. You were always there for me in whatever way you possibly could be but I am sorry that things are no longer enough for me. I cannot justify the heartache that comes with every bland slice of pizza, every overfried mojo and every watered down soda. You cannot blame me for wanting more because I deserve more.
Maybe I will see you around but I can no longer bring you home to my family. Our date nights out were always wonderful and you were always at your best but during the times that I allowed you in my home, you have shown me a whole different side of you that I didn’t even think was possible. It is hard for me to face the possibility that things may never go back to the way that they used to be but a part of me will always hold on to a little hope that it will. Maybe when I have the time and the courage to face you again, I will sit down with you to catch up but for now, I think it is best that we just remain friends.
I want to thank you for all the good times and I am going to miss you a lot but for now, I think we both need to take some space and rethink some of our choices. I hope you find the strength to make people happy in the way that they deserve.
I wish you all the best.
xoxo
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